Beautiful Awakening

mr ngar (my bio lecturer) is leaving us soon ... he gotta give his last lect on coming tues !!!! arrghhxxx ... sad .... that day the whole bio cohort chatted with him after bio lect on fri ... and haiz ... lotsa ppl stated crying even mr ngar too !!!!! i wanted to cry but decided to hold back my tears !!!!! anywayz for ppl who don know mr ngar ... he is a marvellous teacher ... he never fails to make student feel interested bout bio .... even though the topic is plant which is kinda boring !!! during his free time ... he will make some interesting video clips using microsoft powerpoint to spur us to work hard and never give up !!!! he makes me realise that bio is not all about memorising all the facts in the lecture notes but also about how we can view life in another perspectives !!!! haiz .... realli hope he will stay but we just cant change the fact that he is leaving *may god bless him*

anywayz ... went back for ssp on sat with limpy chiang mx pr asyraf and wj !!! after that we went to limpy's house for steamboat !!!! haha xx did joined us later !!! it was realli fun hanging out with u guys !!!!! is being so long since we all gathered and have fun !!!! realli hope our friendship will stay on after A's !!!! love ur to bitz
btw .... wanna say thanx to limpy's mum ... she prepared lotsa food haha and her marinated chicken and fish r so yummy !!!!!! i was so full after the steamboat cos eat too much !!! haha think i put on weight againz .... gotta go to gym againz next week to get rid of all these calories !!!! *cheerio*

been missing several movies cos got no time to watch it !!!! think i gotta challenge myself and watch amityville horror alone somewhere next week !!! i need a movie break urgently !!! lalala so many hw to complete during the hols and gotta ve block tests on the first week of term 3 .. think gotta be a full time mugger this hols ... but hope i still ve the time to hang out with frenz ... i need retail therapy too !!!! lalalala ~~~~~~

think i better get going ... gotta go visit grandma !!!! *sayo* enjoy ur hols ya =)

Thursday, May 26

Almost here ....... 10:54:00 PM

counting down to A's .. okay shall not pressurize myself any further !!!!! i m dying of stress !!! lolx ~~~~ but m feeling more motivated to study now .... gotta work hard !!!!! anywayz .... Great Singapore's Sales is coming !!!! cant wait to go shopping !!!! lalalala ~~~~~ gonna drag mum and sis along to shop !!!!! =)

went to gym yesterday with limpy mx and asyraf .... think it was a fruitful trip !!!!!! shall go there more often next time to exercise !!!! *wink*

gotta ve sch for the first two weeks of hols .... *sianz* and loads and loads of hw .... think i gotta be a mugger this june hols but well *no pain no gain* !!! gonna go mugging now .... *sayo*

Saturday, May 21

shorter .... 10:30:00 PM

finally cut my hair todae ... i feel so light after cutting !!!!! heex .... was supposed to go for bbq at zw's church but bcos had headache the whole day .... decided not to go !! gotta rest at home and mug !!!!! but well ... was planning to mug the whole day but end up slping ... my headache is killing me !!!!

being feeling upset bout my results recently .... i seriously don understand why i cant do well !!!! one failure after another !!! feel like quitting sch againz !!!! maybe mum was right .... i shldnt ve went to jc !!!! maybe poly suits mi better !!!! but is too late for me to regret now ... gotta take A's this yr .... counting down is around 169 days !!!! time really flies .... but i don feel confident or prepared ... i don wanna go into the exam hall feeling un-prepare and not confident !!! is a tough struggle .... and i hate it !!!! i wanna return to the original me .... and not me who is always feeling sad bcos of my studies !!! guide mi out of this sadness plz .... *sayo*

Sunday, May 15

Math is making me mad !!!! 9:45:00 PM

tmr gotta ve math test AGAINZ !!!!! complex nos. vectors and p&c !!!! ve been doing math tys since yesterday !!!!! and seriously it takes me ages to do one math qns .... cos my brain works too slow when it comes to math i guess !!! math is never my forte!!! got bored so tried only a few qns todae !!!! die .... been lazing around todae .... not hardworking at all .... oh gosh .... and there is a chem test on tues and is on organic chem again !!!! haiz .... havent been studying organic chem since the last test !!!! think gotta absorb everything on mon's night again !!!! life's stress .... lalala think i better be mugging !!!! gotta do as much math qns i can !!!! tmr gotta give my best shot .... hope everything go fine .... *sayo*

Wednesday, May 11

i always love wednesday 11:43:00 PM

i always love wednesday ..... lolx ~~~ and i just like studying biology .... at least i will make myself stay awake when i m feeling sleepy during bio lect and tutorial !!!!! biology is just so interesting !!!! cool teachers ... interesting facts .... had bio lect , bio tutorial and bio practical todae !!!! all bio related lessons ... simply makes mi so happy ...

arrghhxxx ... i sprain my knee again ... think i didnt give sufficient time for my old injury to heal completely !!! is so swollen .. just like pig's leg .... hate it .... hope it will heal soon ... not gotta dance and do pe anymore until i m sure it realli heal .... don wanna hurt it again !!!!!

anywayz ... gotta stay back for math extra lect tmr ... hope i still got the energy to !!! kk .... better go back to mugging =) *sayo*

Monday, May 9

8:42:00 PM

i wanna isolate myself from the outside world !!!! i wanna have sometime alone !!!

Sunday, May 8

happy mother's day 11:02:00 PM

HAPPIE MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS !!! had a mini celebration at my grandma's house todae !!!! *grin* but spent most of my time there doing hw !!!

went back to sch yesterday for ptm .... saw lotsa ppl going back to sch to study !!!! this realli motivates me !!! think i gotta go back to sch to study on sat !!! keep me away from distractions like tv, computer and my bed .... ve been mugging most of the time this weekend ... trying to complete the hw and revise a little on the previous topics !!! but i still think i m way too slow !!! maybe i m being paranoid .... think i gotta MUG HARDER HARDER AND HARDER !!!

m not feeling good ... i can feel a load weighing me down !!! i don know wats the cause !!!! hope it will be over soon !!!! *sayo*

Thursday, May 5

moOdy .... 11:21:00 PM

m feeling so moody today ... maybe i didnt have enough sleep yesterday so my head was so heavy the whole day !!!! cant really concentrate on anything !! think i was stoning most of the time !!!!! had extra math lecture till 9 pm todae .... manage to survive thru the 2 hour lecture without falling asleep !!!! during the math lecture .... our lecturer compared us with other jcs student ..... i just hate this comparison ... so wat if they did the math question over and over again !!!!! so wat if they can do well both in studies and cca .... is none of my business !!!!! everyone is born different !!!! we are working hard .... cant anyone just stop comparing us with other jcs student ???

life is so screwed up now !!!! hw piling up .... tests and exams coming up one after another !!!! time r passing real fast ..... soon ... it will be prelim and A level !!!! but i don feel confident at all !!! in fact i m losing hope each day !!!! i m getting weaker .... i feel so lost !!!! but my mind tell me i cannot give up now .... i m so near yet so far from my goal !!!! the feeling is never good to be so near yet so far !!!!! *moody*

Sunday, May 1

2:32:00 PM

i cant believe it .... i actualli put aside my stubborness and apologise to my mum !!!! thanx to my sis for talking some sense into me !!!! after hearing wat my sis says ... i realise i still love my mum lotz !!!! didnt expect her to forgive mi that fast .... although she did nagged a little !!!! but well think is partly my fault too !!! arrghhxxx ... being so stress with studies that i loss my temper very easily and i actualli neglect those ppl around me !!!! feel so guilty !!!! just wanna say .. sorrie mum ... i promise not to be so crazy next time not to talk to u but u also muz keep to ur promise !!!! love u mum =)

HELLO

May sunshine be with you

ME MYSELF I

Temperamental person with a complicated personality. A person whose cover doesn't match its content.

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