Beautiful Awakening

I m so numb to everything around me ..... ever since i started my jc life .... problems just seem to come one after another .... i start to ponder whether i had made the wrong choice ... wld i be better if i chose poly rather than jc ??? but sad to say when i realised that it was indeed a mistake ... is too late .... i m stuck .... totally stuck ....

so many things happened during this period of time .. left me with happie and sad memories ... ppl come and go ... i have known realli good cliques and i have learnt to cherish my frenz even more ..... thank you for being by my side always .... i m realli afraid to lose u guys as my frenz .....

studies .... is never getting better !!!! the more i wanna study hard ...the more reluctant i m !!!!!! the thought of A's just send shivers down my spine !!!!! i know that time is realli running out but i just cant find the motivation to work hard !!!!!! i hate myself for this .... i know i must work hard but i m not ..... i feel like crying .... to vent out all my angers .... but tears just seem to stuck somewhere in my eyes !!!!!!! i realli want to work hard for this last lap ... someone plz pressurize me !!!!! i m just out of my mind !!!!!

my mind is just too tired to think of any other things other than studies !!!!!! a's is driving me mad !!!!! get me out ....

Thursday, August 25

dum dee dum .... 11:05:00 PM

went to watch the maid with the usual gang .... woo ~~ overall the show is not bad ... the sound effects r quite scary but can expect where the ghost will be coming out !!!! it is mend to be a scary movie but i think it turns out to be a sad story !!! i kinda feel disgusted at the ending part when the ah soon raped the maid and never did we expect that ah soon was actualli a ghost !!!! but overall ... i think i will recommend my frenz to watch !!!! or at least to show their support to singapore's first horror movie !!!!

anywayz ... don feel like studying todae .... hmm ~~~ prelim is starting next week .. time realli flies !!! seriously i also don know if i m prepared for it ... just wanna try my best !!!! think i m still not working hard enough .... haiz .... gotta find ways to push myself harder !!! think there r no shortcuts to good results !!!!! kk ... think i better go mug now .... *sayo* god bless =)

Wednesday, August 10

boring .... 2:45:00 PM

how boring can life get ??? i m so bored !!! not that i don ve hw to occupy me .... i just don feel like doing it !!!!!! lotsa tests coming up !!!!! prelim is coming real soon then after that is a's !!!!! arrgghhxxx... just spare me !!!! i don wanna take a's !!!! seriously i don know how ppl can mug all day long !!!!! and i seriously dont understand how top jc's student can finish syllabus in one year and got the time to read on other stuffs which r of no relation to our topic !!!!! well .... just go attend the biomedical quiz and u will know wat i m talking about !!!!! i m so shocked/astonish/lost for words when i saw how the top jc's ppl answer the qns !!!!! i can say that i don even know wat the heck they talking about but they r able to give relevant answers to all the questions !!!!! how can i ever compete with those ppl ???? our syllabus to them is nothing !!!!! but here i m struggling for at least a pass !!!!! crap ... life's so unfair !!!!

it realli sets me thinking .... we r working so hard but in the end , we will onli get a piece of paper with all ur grades on it .... and grades r all alphabets ... so all in all we r just working hard bcos of a piece of paper and alphabets that determines our future !!!!! there is no logic !!!!! how can we ever determine a person's potential based on papers and alphabets ???? singapore's education system is realli getting no where ... producing ppl that onli knows how to produce grade A and nothing else !!!!! sad .... i m still stuck in this kind of system !!!!! realli turning my life upside down !!!!!

Tuesday, August 9

Happy National Day 12:39:00 PM

happy birthday to Singapore =) Singapore is small yet we r able to survive for 40 years . this is realli not easy !!!!! anywayz ... wanted so much to go and watch the firework at esplanade but bcos of studies ve to sacrifice .... had been out on sat and yesterday that i didnt manage to finish most of my hw .... still one pile of it waiting for me !!!!!! so boring ....

anywayz ... went to watch Charlie and Chocolate Factory yesterday with limpy, mx and asyraf !!!! the show is realli worth watching ... is so funny *thumbs up* ... realli bring me back to my childhood. and it also make me feel like eating more chocolate !!!!! think my love for chocolate has grown *wink*

boring gotta stay at home the whole day .... hope a's can be over soon .... it realli turn my whole life upside down !!!!! sianz .... lolx .... most ppl think that i m the kind of people who cant havoc but think they haven seen the other side of me !!!! is not that i don like is just that i cant !!!! mum always wanna me to get home early like before 11 ... how can i ever go havoc ??? lolx ... think i m blabbering nonsense againz .... shall stop now ... gotta go back to hw ... enjoy ur day ya =) *god bless*

Friday, August 5

lalala ~~~~~ 11:05:00 PM

is being realli long since i updated my blog !!!! think 14 july is my last entry ... have been bz with lotsa sch stuffs !!!!! so many things happened that i also cant realli remember wat exactly happen !!!

had our dance bbq at caresse's frenz condo ....( cant remember the exact date ) anywayz the condo is so nice, it got almost all the facilities that i wanted !!!! lol .... had a great time hanging out with all the dance babes .... managed to meet up with cynthia too !!!! lolx ... realli miss the time when we practised for our syf dance .... is indeed very tough but it realli brought us closer together !!!!! miss u galz ... study hard ya ..... look forward to the next dance gathering =)

next up will be the student leader investiture !!! seriously i feel like crying on that day ... when i pass my post to the j1s !!!!! come to think of it ... i m the secretary of selator for onli half a year as compared to other student leaders who held their post for at least 1 year !!!!! had so much fun with all the student leaders ... they r realli fun-loving ppl ... lol ... still remember all the fun that we had during the leadership camp , our crapping session cum dinner at sakura and the campusvisit .... the hide-and-seek thingy !!!!!! i hate to say this .... but wanna thank asyraf for nominating me as the secretary !!! it realli make my life in yj so much interesting and memorable !!!! wanna thanx all the 19th student leaders ... we r the best =)

got back my term 3 block test results ... i did so badly ... except for gp and math ... bio and chem is so badly done !!!!!! cant believe all my hard work during the june hols just gone down the drain !!!!!!! sianz ... when ppl r alreadi trying to score .... i m still trying to pass !!!! a's is onli 95 days away .... how to take a's if i continue with this kind of results ??? got so turn off by my results !!!!! reality bites !!!!! let my dad signed the result slip ... whew .... dad didnt say anything neither do mum .... they just tell me to try my best !!!! m so so so lucky to ve parents that do not pressurize me in my studies !!!!! love ur lots =)

is gotta be a long hols starting from todae ..... lalala ~~~ so happy .... but well one whole pile of hw waiting for me !!!! lotsa tests after the hols too !!! shall realli make full use of the hols !!!! refrain from going shopping and watching movie although i wanted badly ..... okay maybe one or two movies ... wanna watch the maid !!!!!! esp now is the 7th month ... is realli eerie !!!! wanna challenge my guts !!!!! okay .. think i gotta go rest !!!! shall update when i m free !!!! ganbetta and *god bless*

HELLO

May sunshine be with you

ME MYSELF I

Temperamental person with a complicated personality. A person whose cover doesn't match its content.

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