Beautiful Awakening

I think I am fine now ... gotten over everything ... i hope i really have ... been thinking a lot ... bout a lot of things and i realised i make a lot of silly mistakes ... i just pray that i wont continue making those silly mistakes again .... Time to move on gal =)

Monday, March 13

11:23:00 PM

Rock Bottom, if you asked me where m i now ... i m at the rock bottom.
stop coming to ask me when is the closing date for uni registration, what institutions are you going to enter, what am i going to do. I DONT NEED ALL THESE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know your son done well , he has triple As ... thats his problem !!!!!! and stop asking me what course i m going to apply, pls have some mindset of your own ... live your life for 19 years and you still dont know how to think for urself !!!!!! i m already feeling damn upset , depressed . cant you just leave me alone ???? i thought i have gotten over everything but NO ... NO .... NO ... this damn feeling just creep on me every night. I laugh and smile in the day but i cry at night .... pls ... stop pestering me bout all the uni and courses !!!! have a mind of your own and stop asking me !!!!! I m already at a loss !!!!!! DAMN ..... i dont think anyone ever read this entry too !!!!! damn ....... my life is damn screwed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this whole thing !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 8

11:48:00 PM

Received an email from Mag today, all the way from Brisbane. thanks gal , I feel comforted. i will go visit you when my mum allows me to k ... i seriously think i need break , jie also think so. Think is time i learn to face the truth and think of whatever i need to do. Not doing well for A's is definitely not a thing that anyone wanna try. I have had my share , is never a good feeling. never felt so miserable in the whole of my 19 years. Think how ppl gotta look at you, they gotta despise you , just like what the ntu lecturer did. To that whoever, i really felt discouraged after whatever you said to me. you push me down to the rock bottom. arghx... i just hate this damn feeling ... i guess i gotta be sad for very long.

*I don wanna pray to have a happy ending
I just hope i have the courage to face everything
My heart is no longer strong enough to accept any other things
I really cant afford to lose anything around me now
My family and friends
Thanks for staying by me always
Lending me a shoulder to cry
Hugging me when I m crying
I really feel comforted ....

Really happy for all my friends who have done well for a's , your hard work has finally pay off ... congrats. To my other friends who didnt do well or not up to their expectations, dont be discouraged .. life goes on... your are definitely worth more than that piece of cert. this is what Limpy and Meiling told me. *cheers to all* *God Bless*

Wednesday, March 1

10:48:00 AM

This is it ....
The day is finally here....
No matter what is going to happen today....
Life's not gotta be the same anymore....
I m Scared...
This whole process of waiting is driving me insane
I dont wanna pray for good results cos I know is just too late
I just wanna pray that I will have the courage to face it
No matter how bad it is going to turn out
Life's still goes on
The clock is still ticking away
I hope God hears my prayers
No words can describe how i m feeling now
I wanna be strong to face it .....
Counting down
3 hours .....

HELLO

May sunshine be with you

ME MYSELF I

Temperamental person with a complicated personality. A person whose cover doesn't match its content.

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