Beautiful Awakening

So i finally understand....
I see the whole picture.
It comes as a whole.
So this is only part of it.
I will learn to get use to it.
I promise.

What a good way to start a new year. feeling emo. I dont belong to this world. I am withdrawing myself.I am simply mentally tired. I need a break......

1:20:00 AM

1.30 am
I should be asleep by now
But here i am
Struggling to do my part for the event
But having friends to chat with you on msn during wee hours is comforting

30th December 2006
A day of choices
I am faced with lots of choices
Troubled. Very Troubled.
Sipping my hot chocolate from this thin straw.
With my buddy sitting next to me
My mind is drifting away
I was in a dilemma
I am really happy that i was nominated
But i am struck with the fact that studies come first and i gotta go for it at the expense of my study
Took a long bus ride home, Alight at a bus stop a distance away from my house.
Strolling along and thinking.
Final conclusion.
I decided to give up
I hope i dont regret
But somehow someone have already make me regret my choice
Too late for any changes
No more changes
Studies come first
Why do i always have to give something up because of my studies ???
I am tired of doing so.

Resolutions for new year
1) Be happy
2) Be strong
3) Be optimistic
4) Do well for my studies
5) World peace
6) Friendships stay strong between me and my friends
7) May everyone be healthy and cheery

Thats all for now. Happy new year. Great year ahead =)

Tuesday, December 26

8:17:00 PM

Belated merry christmas. No snowing but still it is replaced with rain.

I am going Malacca tmr. Wee~~~ not as excited as going to bintan clubmed but still is a getaway from Singapore. hopefully i dont have to swim across the causeway. the flood at JB should have subsided.

2007 is coming in another 5 days. Shall enjoy the last 5 days of 2006. Is gotta be a history soon..... Somehow. i hope this year doesnt pass by so fast, i haven had enough of it yet. Too late for anything. Face the reality.

Wednesday, December 20

11:05:00 PM

I m struck with the sudden urge to blog. feels like i've got lots of things to say about....

Went night cycling with my usual gang of friends last sat. tiring but is a great experience. i m the last to reach back at ecp but at least i make it. yup. fulfilling night except my butt hurts for days. determination and endurance does pay off.

I am back to the old routine of at least one movie per week. The Holiday was on my list so after sch yesterday we went to watch it. The sweet christmas love comedy. Both the female leads just fell out of love before christmas so by chance, through this online website, they switch house for two weeks and who knows they met their true love in the two weeks stay in each other's home. How sweet can it be ??? i am simply going head over heels over that show. typical love comedy to some people but i love it. maybe i should also try that on one of my christmas. maybe switch to a house in UK for two weeks ? arghx. i m daydreaming again.

Is being ages since i last indulge myself in Nicholas Sparks's novels. I am half way through The Guardian. Should really get some time to spend with my book. especially is being so rainy these few days. best time to coop myself at home and indulge myself with novels and chips by my side. i wanna be a food junkie again but thinking of the calories that i have to shed after that. Discouraging. Shall not think bout that. yup. indulge myself with novels.

Christmas is coming again. Wee... Best festive of the year. i love christmas but i dont know how should i celebrate it. Spend it with Tv shows, novels and chips. it seems that my christmas cant get any better than this. arghx. Every year is a replica, one more year and i gotta spice up my christmas next year. alone or with someone somewhere, anywhere. Whatever. Now then i realised how empty i felt.

Anyway, i am going overseas again. will be going Malacca from next wed to fri. Not somewhere far but at least is a getaway from Singapore. Malacca is not a bad place for a short trip but cant be compared to bintan clubmed. i wanted so badly to go back there. Please let miracles happen. No. in Reality, miracles happen but not this time round.

Alright, gotta sleep. Merry Christmas in advance =)

Sunday, December 10

2:36:00 PM

Best birthday i ever had. thanks to all my darlings =)

Thursday, December 7

11:24:00 PM

Wee ~~~ i am back from bintan. nice beach. nice weather. nice ambience. great food. great company. great performances. i had been eating international cuisine buffet for all my meals for the past 3 days in bintan. i feel so fat. anyway. a trip worthwhile.

*to u . thanks a lot for all the fond memories. i may not see u again but u will always be remembered =)

HELLO

May sunshine be with you

ME MYSELF I

Temperamental person with a complicated personality. A person whose cover doesn't match its content.

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